i miss it.

i miss working out. i miss running.

right when i had berkeley, i felt better than ever. as a newborn, up until he was about a month old, he slept most of the day and was completely content unless he was hungry. and that was pretty easy to fix.

but these days, his naps are shorter, and evenings are tricky. you never know when he might get fussy, or when he might get hungry. in the daytime, there's a schedule of sorts. at night, he could be eating every 45 minutes if he feels so inclined. (interesting fact: babies eat more frequently in the evenings so they can store up and sleep for longer intervals during the night. so go ahead berkeley, eat all you want :) that's more sleep for me!

ANY.WAY. when he was a month old, i started running again. and it was so easy. derek would come home from work and immediately take over so i could go do my thing. but now that berkeley is unpredictable at night, it's almost impossible to get in a guilt-free run or workout, knowing my sweet baby boy is at home upset. (not that derek wasn't doing all he could to take care of him. but since i'm nursing, derek can't really feed him.)

it seems everywhere i look, there are runners, bloggers who write about running, etc. and i feel so eager to get back out there!

if it weren't so dark in the mornings, i'd go before he woke up. but by the time it's light outside, he's awake.

i could meet up with the running club at 5 am, but i'm not even trained enough right now to go on a short run without walking breaks, so i probably couldn't keep up.

for a while there, my mom was keeping berkeley while derek and i went to spin class at the fitness center, but i'm about to start night classes, so to be gone 2 nights a week for school, and then 2 more nights for working out, that would just be sad. i'd miss him too much.

so there. there was no point to this post other than to discuss my running predicament. berkeley is sleeping in my lap right now, so i thought it'd be a good time to post.

now i'm going to go read the hungry runner girl and dream of the day i can run again :)

oh, and to clarify, berkeley is perfect and wonderful and the best thing that ever happened to us. i'm not blaming him in any way. i just miss running!